That I need to love and own my own acting!
I fired my agents in January 2016 and called up my friend to make a pact that we’ll make one movie a month for an entire year. So for the entire 2016 year I made 12 movies. We wrote, learned about sound, location scouted, shot, acted, edited and executed everything that goes into amateur movie making. They are my ugly babies. Although, some are cute.
I took a break last year because I relied on my agents to supply my creative wealth. Horrible dependency. It was an awful feeling.
To fuel my own artistry I made 12 movies last year and now I’m auditioning and headhunting a manager :)))!!!!!
I was just offered a lead role in a mutual friends’ movie, which came from someone I met making a movie two years ago, who saw my work in my latest project and now wants to work with me.
You never know who’s watching!
I listen to hip-hop, jazz and rock n roll
I just finished the play Blue Surge by Rebecca Gilman
I listen to Smart Drug Smarts Podcasts
Joe Rogan Podcast
I receive newsletters from brainpickings.org and thedailystoic.com
Jim Jarretts newsletter were incredibly refreshing and a good dose of artistic health.
I have a pool of about five people, my best friends, who I speak to on a regular basis. We all keep each other accountable and elevate one another to find love in our own art.
One of the greatest gifts to the craft of acting and humanity, and I am so proud to be a student of his artistic lineage and brilliance.
How difficult simple was.
Not to worry about a career yet. That happens after you train and learn and become a student of the technique. Student, then career!
The teachings are literal and simple. Leave your preparation at the door means leave it at the door. Prepare for the first moment means only for the first moment and so on. Don’t think it means anything else than what you’re taught. Those are ideas and not teachings.
While beginning to work, If it’s not fun, scratch it and make sure you come from a place of joy before you start again.
Also, relax before you prepare. I’ve learned that when you’re not relaxed you’re coming from fear and you’ll be on yourself and unreceptive.
Hunt for meaning!!
Learn to looooove how moments reveal themselves!!!!!!
How little I knew about myself before I started.
Moving away from the “actor version” of myself.
And using my real self.
With Jim and Melissa on a regular basis.
I didn’t realize till now but learning how to act at your school was really a collaborative process in it’s entirety. Jim and Melissa were helping me, help myself act and it was a lot of back and forth like a project. My questions, your answers. My confusions, your clarifications, my ideas, your green lights and no’s, so on and so forth.
Being in class with people who don’t care.
How important doors and activities are. I wish I made more stimulating choices. There’s a door and an activity in every scene we’ll ever play and see. Someone is always coming to someone with a need.
To be patient and listen to the teachings more literally. And not think about my career until I was done training.
Learning how to relax
When I fake cried hahahahahahaahah
When I cut watermelon for my grandfather.
When I learned that I am the character. But I still wish I knew that as much as I do now.
I got my agent because someone saw me working on set and referred me. Referral is best.
Don’t be desperate in talking with them.
Be responsive to their emails and calls. No delays.
I had a horrible relationship with my first agent. So I’m still learning how I would maintain a good working relationship with one.
Connect to the reader or the person you’re talking to.
And if you’ve had a bad audition. Leave for a few minutes and come back and ask for another one. Confidently. And it must be done CONFIDENTLY.
I’ve always gotten another chance.
Auditioning takes a good dose of shamelessness.
Also, casting directors/producers/directors can smell your authentic or unauthentic self the moment you walk in. So get good at getting rid of any version of yourself and being the real you.
Your probationary years are going to be wonderful if you create your own work and audition at the same time.
I’ll have the manager I’m head hunting.
Still be acting my ass off!
I’m feeling pretty impressionable about life.
I’m not a working actor.
The hustle isn’t boring.
But it’s daunting.
It’s the most difficult fun I’ve ever had.
We hate when they call “Action”
I tell directors I have good relationships with not to say it. Some listen, some dont haha!!
wix.com is free and awesome fore websites.
Other than that I’m still learning all market stuff.
I’ll have the manager I’m head hunting.
Myself 20 years from now as George in Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf
Starting to be Marcus Aurelius
And I’m trying to be my best influence.
When I saw Indiana Jones playing Han Solo.
I then knew Harrison Ford was an actor and wanted to be one.
Having the opportunity and freedom to express.
My feelings and meaning vs. my intellect
I was all guts and no head.
I’ll be a master of acting!
Who’s Afraid of Virginia Woolf
The Art of Loving by Erich Fromm
Try to bring myself back to my feet.
Or look off into the farthest distance I can and focus on an object to keep my sights outside of my own head.
Making friends with fear
be an actor who doesn’t make a choice.
And we suffer a lot in our imaginations.
A lot more than we do in reality.
Don’t do that!