Vincent Van Gogh"Your profession is not your job.Your profession is what you're put on this earth to do with such passion and intensity it becomes spiritual in calling."
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I came from Japan to San Francisco as a plus one to my husband who got transferred here because of his job. I was reluctant to move here with him because I had been an actor back home for over 11 years and was finally seeing a glimpse of hope of fully sustaining myself with this career. But at the same time, I had this dark cloud that was growing in me constantly saying “is THIS what you wanted?” because the “Acting” I was doing just didn’t seem right and I always felt I was just fooling the audience. So I made up my mind to make a change in my life and dived in. As I sat in front of my computer in my SF apartment with no furniture last August typing “acting in SF” because I had no clue what so ever about the industry in this area, this school’s website caught my eyes. Going to school was not my first priority because back then I thought my only solution to solving all my problems was to get more jobs and keep working until I make my breakthrough somehow. Yet I was also stuck in a situation where my spouse VISA didn’t allow me to start working unless I had a work permit. And so I decided to just look through the website to see what they were teaching. And there, EVERY SINGLE THING written there, struck me like thunders. I was literally shaking. It was like someone else was watching me the entire time and worded out every problem I had and told me what to do. I immediately sent an email asking to be interviewed by Jim and soon after I was called back to see him and that was only three days before the first day of fall session. I am truly grateful that he let me in and that I made this decision for myself because oh boy, I need five hours to explain all that.
First, my biggest fear was to think that “my dream will never come true”. When you’re early into the dream of acting, this often means “I’ll never get to Hollywood” or “I’ll never be famous” or “I’ll never book enough jobs” because success is often measured by fame and money. Once you start seeing the great work and see great acting in front of your eyes on sets it becomes “Will I ever be able to do that?”. But soaking myself in the fast-food-acting industry and seeing so many actors get away with bad acting and still make their names, washes away that thought and I start thinking the first questions again and fall into the loop of constant doubt, suffocating myself in my own dream. That was how I lived the past decade before coming here. Studying at The Meisner Technique Studio gave me the fear; a whole new level of “Will I ever be able to do this?” because you’re introduced to the purest, most authentic way of acting, which is HARD. But the positive effect of this new level of fear is that you’re not so much worried about the earlier fears because you’re so focused on becoming a better actor, and it is such a relief. So here I am still battling with my greatest fear of “will I ever be able to do this” but managing to control it in a much healthier attitude.
I thought I was going to die. I was so nervous mainly because I hadn’t been speaking English for more than 12 years let alone be in a class full of English speaking people and I’m sure a lot of ESL students can relate to this. IT IS SCARY! So the first thing I thought when I came out of the classroom was that I was, in fact, very alive. AND not only was I alive but I was so hopeful for my future because the first class was so therapeutic to someone like myself who’s been on the verge of giving up their dreams so many times.
The greatest gift would definitely be the healthier attitude towards my dream. By this, is to think less about what others think of you and stop trying to be good and be FREE! This is a game changer in such a neurotic industry where everything you do is judged by others. I am still learning to be free but I’ve felt so much positive changes in my personal relationships, in class, and in my relationship with my dream.
someone who saved my dream by giving me hope that if I put the time and effort, I WILL be able to call myself an actor. And borrowing Jim and Melissa’s words, he was a genius because his teachings, his techniques are what makes me believe in that statement.
It took me a month to write this because I felt like I didn’t have anything valuable to share. Going after this dream and being in this training is like riding an emotional jet coaster. You feel wonderful today wanting to share everything positive, and so ripped apart and worn out the next day that everything that comes out of your mouth is negative. The ride has definitely become more smooth as I grew into this training and learned how to think that I’M ENOUGH. And so I am sharing this hoping that someone could relate to this and feel encouraged.
I need to improve on my choice making. You cannot buy into the imaginary circumstances unless you make the right, activating choice. This to me is like reevaluating my life and me as a person – what happened and what made me do certain things and why I felt that way. It’s a constant experimenting and learning process and I cannot agree more that “your talent lies in your choices!”
To ask yourself WHY you’re doing this. Although I am very clear on why I started it initially, I have yet to find my ultimate answer. I have a vague outline of it now but I feel like when I finally have that, I become the strongest and healthiest version of myself not only in terms of going after my dream but as a human being because it is so close to asking yourself the purpose of life. I am not rushing to conclusions because I know I will be a different person when I complete this training, but the occasional thoughts of WHY wakes me up from my unhealthy habit of fearing my dream will never come true.
I need to work on my ability to concentrate. As Jim always tells us that the current society requires you to become so busy thinking about multiple things at a time. I never realized that until I had problems in preparations because I was easily distracted by other thoughts as silly as “what should I cook for my husband tonight” to something common like “what if this doesn’t take me THERE”. I have become better at this after almost a year in this training but I still feel like the “freakish ability to concentrate” is my weak link to my work which I think is the foundation to live in your own imaginary world and to focus on your partner. Also, because of my previous training and how I worked before, it is hard for me to shut my inner critique – the mini director version of myself.
I have struggled for 12 years and yet here I am with so many insecurities and doubts and negativity but hey! I’m still here! I’m not trying to discourage anyone who’s just started following their dream of acting but the reality is harsh. You need to be patient if you really want this. The good news is tho, the worst thing that can happen to your dream is YOU QUITTING. So just keep doing the work and be patient! Jim and Melissa will give you enough love and support so you’ll never want to quit 😉
It’s true. This school is not for everyone.
The students at the Meisner Technique studio are held to a very high standard – the same standard that Jim and Melissa hold themselves to. Yes, we’re expected to be on time – would you show up late to a film set? Yes, we’re expected to be ready to WORK – would you show up unprepared on opening night?
Jim and Melissa are nothing short of passionate, caring and sometimes tough loving teachers who truly want their students to be THRIVING artists in every sense of the word. Yes it can be tough at times – really tough, but that’s growth baby! If you want to be an actor, a talented competitive actor, the Meisner Technique Studio is the first step on the Yellow Brick Road…
Thank you Jim and Melissa ~ my dreams are no longer just dreams because of you. I am forever indebted ~
Good morning and happy Sunday to you!
I’m nearing the end of a one-month holiday break from my acting school in San Francisco. I do realize how blessed I am to be able to have a break like this and I’m so grateful for it. This time away has been incredibly healing and needed – much more than I knew I even needed or desired.
But what I’m most grateful for is how excited I am to get back to work. I’m incredibly grateful that I love my job.
What are you MOST grateful for today?
As so often happens as a year comes to a close we reflect on “what is” and “what isn’t” in our lives.
So it was no accident then that a few weeks back I asked you to answer a very personal question, “What pattern or behavior in your life is not working for you?”
I also asked if you’d send your response directly to me that I would not share it with others.
Well, the responses were overwhelming and beautifully honest and two things became very clear:
I had several reasons for asking this question. One is I’m creating something to share with you all that has helped me immensely and I hope it helps you.
And two, I was really asking this of myself as I reflected on my year of what is and what isn’t for me because it has been a very humbling year for me – personally and professionally. Not bad just a lot of upheaval and change in all areas of my life.
And this is what this break was all about for me – getting really honest about the areas of my life that are not working. And more, importantly getting to the source of where these limiting beliefs and behaviors started.
And what I discovered was a huge surprise because it was something I thought I had already dealt with and transcended.
Clearly not and “my year” reflected how much work I still needed to do.
What was my discovery?
Before that, a story.
When I was working my way up the Hollywood Food Chain my wife was the personal assistant to the most powerful producer in Hollywood, Don Simpson. You’ve never heard of Don because he died 20 years ago the way so many lost people in Hollywood die – overdosed on the bathroom floor in his $20 million dollar estate.
Don Simpson and his partner Jerry Bruckheimer (you’ve probably heard of him) owned Hollywood in the 80’s. Their first film was Flashdance. Next came Top Gun, Beverly Hills Cop, Days Of Thunder, Bad Boys, Crimson Tide, and The Rock.
They were incredibly successful and rich and in Hollywood that equals power. And Don Simpson died from all of it.
Those who were close to Don’s ride new it was coming. When the head of Disney Studios, Michael Eisner, heard of Don’s death he said, “I’ve been waiting for this news for ten years.”
A train wreck.
And a crash I was very close to it because my ex was his personal assistant for five years.
I saw it all.
And it scared me.
And the reason it scared me is because Don Simpson and I were a lot alike. Oh trust me, we’re also miles apart but I definitely saw a lot of me in him.
And none of it good.
What I discovered during this month off of soul-searching and brutal honesty was this – deep, really deeeeeeeeeeep inside me (even though I thought I’d done all this work) I still equate success, money, and power with “trouble.” By trouble I mean Don Simpson trouble – divorce, drugs, unhappiness, and the biggest trouble of all if you love life, death.
No wonder my two biggest projects this last year “stalled.”
For me to go where I want to go I need to heal (on a whole other level) my beliefs about money, success, and power.
I’m humbled to realize I still equate them to trouble. And that is simply not true because there are lots and lots of wonderful examples of people lives where that’s not the case.
What are you beliefs about these things? Money? Success? Power?
Or more importantly, what is your biggest limiting belief about anything having to do with YOU being brilliant?
Until we get to the center of what limits us from stepping into our brilliance all of our New Year Resolutions to “change and be better” will continue to be haunt us instead of empowering us.
I’d love to hear from you – whether you send me a private email or post something on our Facebook community. In fact, it’s my favorite part of writing these newsletters!
My very best to you, Jim
I've been journaling every morning for the last several weeks and came across this beautiful resource to support what I'm doing - The Five Minute Journal.
Continuing with the theme of "jumping in spite of our fears," this is photo of Josh, one of our former students on our retreat in Hawaii a few years back as he's about to "jump" from ledge overlooking a waterfall. Believe it's a bit scary but so cool once you do it.